Gah

I'm tired of my heart feeling like it needs to throw up.

I don't want to leave.

I don't want to stay.

I don't want to go on this stupid cruise.

I don't want to go to college.

I need to kick my butt into gear and suck it all up.

I need to completely and totally forget about him.

I need to sign up for institute.

I need to send a letter to the dorm room people.

I'm tired of feeling not good enough.

I don't want to care about anyone right now.

I want to go to church right this second.

I don't want to think about him leaving.

I think I'm going to throw up.

And I want some damn pizza.