Just maybe..

I know I should be done with this by now. I know what is happening isn't good for me, isn't good for us. I know how hard we try to make this work, and I know how much it rips us up inside. I know I should be done, but I'm not.
There's something there, keeping me there, tugging at my heart. There's something about you, about us, that draws me in time after time. There's a calm about you, the calm before the storm. The storm will hit eventually, so maybe I should be done.
I know there's nothing good about this, you and me, anymore. As always, however, I can't let go and it is again drawn on. There's a softness in your voice, but even the softest pillow wears out and is no longer soft, so maybe I should be done.
There's something about the way you are that makes me just need you. There's something about how your eyes look right through me. There's something about your kind smile, but even that can turn into a frown, so maybe I should be done.
Of course I'm not, and never will be able to let this go. Holding onto to you and me is what I do best. And it will bring hurt, with every wave, every gust of wind, every drop of rain. My heart will break and I know it will and I know yours will too. But maybe you alone can mend my tears and maybe I alone can only mend yours. I know I should be done with this, you and I and I know how alone we will feel. I know I should be done with this, but I'm not, and I fear never will be.

<33*angie